Running with abandon, despite a mouthful of gnats

I just started running again after my last baby. I use “again” loosely here, because I’m a fairly new runner. Until four years ago, I pretty much hated running. To me it was the definition of masochism because why would someone run, when they could walk and actually enjoy themselves? Or drive, for that matter. But a friend invited me to run with him for a cause he supported, I didn’t die during the event, and my love for running began.

My favorite run is a 5-mile route around a lake near my house. It’s peaceful, inspiring, and often has some of the best sunrises anywhere. Like the past few weeks, I met one of my best friends KJean. We started run… ning… and… talk…..ing……. (because that’s what it sounds like at 6:30 when I run), and a moment later, when we erupted into laughter about something, the gnats attacked.

I mean mouth-ful, in-the-eyes, in-the-nose, cloud of gnats. Gross just doesn’t really cut it. And the fact that it was so gross we burst into even wilder laughter didn’t help the problem!

Fortunately, we only hit a few more gnat clouds the rest of the run. But that first one really left an impression (besides the gnats I was pulling out of my hair and ears the rest of the morning!) You see, the reason I fell in love with running was two-fold: it gave me a reliable break I could feel good about taking from my kids who have special needs, and that few moments of “runner’s high” releases and inspires me with ideas for my life.

Both those aspects are so crucial for me to endure my run in life as a mom raising kids with special needs. There is nothing I can do about the fact that some days, I wake to screaming, angry, anxious kids who would just as soon hurt me as hug me because of their biochemistry for the day. Even with consistent parenting strategies, there’s very little I can do to prevent the damage to walls and furniture that come with a mood-swing tantrum. And the fact that my 7 1/2 year old foster/adopted kiddo still pees her anxiety out around the house, and that I have to consistently consequence her and hold her to responsibly cleaning it up (even if it takes two hours to do…), well, it’s part of my run in this life.

I’m glad I have great running buddies to get through those really buggy parts, like today. It’s totally worth the mouthful of gnats, just to laugh with a friend until my gut hurts!

And while we’re on that topic, I’d like to recommend another blogger I’ve discovered who has a wild story and wonderful writing style. Check her out for some amazing perspective on a life with intense challenges! The Bipolar Diva: I’m Not Sure What to Do

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  1. says

    @Melodramama – Thanks for the badge update. Looks and works great!

    @Territory Mom – So glad you enjoyed it. I'm looking forward to getting to know you as we keep up our blogging lives!

    @Monise – left another comment on your Twitter acct, but wanted to check in cuz I got new shoes and my knees didn't even hurt for my lake run today!!! Woo-hoo! Hope yours are still doing well :).

  2. says

    Love it! I 'tried' running but didn't realize how bad my knee and back really are. Went for a very intense deep tissue massage and she said: Absolutely NO running! Apparently my muscles and joints are all messed-up. Guess what? I cheated yesterday and ran for about 3 minutes twice! It felt good the first time but the second time…ummm not so good! That's ok tough because I was proud of myself! And I am proud of you for NOT feeling guilty about wanting to be away from your kids for some Mommy time…it's normal! I also commend you for dealing with the challenges of raising kids with special needs. I am a former Special Education teacher. I was able to deal with my kids all day because I knew that I could help them, without letting my motherly instincts get in the way!

    Keep up the good work and keep running!

    Monise

  3. says

    Laurie, Thanks also for letting me know about my badge. I got it fixed now. Let me know if you have any more problems. Looking forward to reading more of your posts : )

  4. says

    @Michelle – Good job running with kids AND a dog. Our puppy is such a spaz still, and my kids' abilities so varied with a toddler in tow… it's like a zoo getting everyone out there together! I hope you have a great 5K experience. I really like that distance. Would love to hear if you end up getting some running buddies together too!

  5. says

    Thanks, Linda! Yeah, the accountability part is so important, and is such a cause of self-doubt sometimes. It's hard to hold someone with different abilities to certain standards. But we figure she's going to have to figure it out at some point… gentler here than in the real world. šŸ™‚

  6. says

    Hi Laurie–

    You(and your family)are heroic for adopting special needs children. And I love the fact that you hold your daughter accountable to cleaning up despite her disability.

    I look forward to reading more posts.

    Thanks,

    Linda

  7. says

    I've been doing a little running with my kids and crazy dog. It's good exercise for us all. We're signed up for a 5K rule this Saturday. I'm not ready to run the whole way. I'm thinking and hoping one of my three children will want to stay behind and alternate fast walking and jogging.

    I should get some running buddies my own age too. There's one friend I know I could count on.

    I love my kids, but a absense makes the heart grow fonder.

    Thanks for the mention at Blogging Mamas.

  8. says

    How fun! Thanks for following! It's been such an adventure for me to find other fun moms out there who enjoy their lives and share so openly. Looking forward to reading many more of your great posts over time!

  9. says

    Hi Laurie, thanks so much for taking the time to comment on my blog. I'm really glad to meet you. I love what your blog stands for. What a great source of encouragement and perspective. Will be following and adding you to my loved blogs list. Thanks for the update on my badge. I'm getting it fixed.

  10. says

    Laurie,

    Hugs to you! You are a true warrior mamma…in the trenches…and providing those logical consequences and LOVE…even when it isn't convenient…and even when you might rather run in the opposite direction with your hands thrown up in the air…or even rather be swallowing a mouth full of gnats.

    Your LOVE changes brains. It is true. Keep it up. Lucky kids get to call you “mamma”!

    Wendy @Kidlutions

  11. says

    Laurie,

    Hugs to you! You are a true warrior mamma…in the trenches…and providing those logical consequences and LOVE…even when it isn't convenient…and even when you might rather run in the opposite direction with your hands thrown up in the air…or even rather be swallowing a mouth full of gnats.

    Your LOVE changes brains. It is true. Keep it up. Lucky kids get to call you “mamma”!

    Wendy @Kidlutions