Life has this way of getting us in a tizzy sometimes, doesn’t it?
We get up, get going, get annoyed, get overwhelmed. We get stressed, get tired, get more coffee, and get stuck.
Today’s guest, Sheri Dacon, shares the moment she realized she’d been running in circles, trying to make life happen, when God was inviting her to live life instead. Be blessed!
There’s this funny thing dogs do where they paw at the ground and circle around for what seems like a hundred times before settling in for the night. One night, as I watched my dog do her routine, I realized I’d spent the first 40 years of my life chasing my own tail. Trying to be in control of everything, trying to achieve perfection, constantly tweaking and pressuring myself to be good, better, best.
But unlike my dog, I never had settled in. I was a crazy woman running in circles.
Until I found out my son had autism.
Once we learned the diagnosis, I went through denial, then a season of bargaining with God, then crippling anxiety — before I finally owned up to the fact that I couldn’t live this way forever. I had worked so hard to hold everything together but I couldn’t do it anymore. Life was crumbling. I was physically, emotionally and spiritually exhausted.
Autism was just the final straw.
And because I’m stubborn, I had to get to the point of complete collapse before finally tossing my white flag of surrender into the air.
I was done—completely crumpled and desperate for help.
Learning How to Let Go
A few years ago I tried ziplining for the first time. I’m not especially scared of heights, but I do have a healthy fear of things that might kill me. Being that high off the ground was unnerving to say the least. Once I was hooked and harnessed and ready to go, the little man at the top told me to sit on the edge of the platform and lean forward like I was falling off.
I was terrified. The platform beneath me was solid. If I let go, I would lose all control and have to depend upon a steel cable to keep me from plunging to my death.
Taking a deep breath, I leaned my weight forward. For a split second I was suspended, but before I had even exhaled, I felt the catch of the zipline as I zoomed down the length of it. It was exhilarating—fun and freeing and without any effort on my part. Just the zipline doing its thing.
I had to learn the same lesson in life. Once I finally gave up the notion that I was in charge and leaned into the ONE who really does hold things together, my life changed drastically.
That doesn’t mean life is easy. But knowing that I don’t have to hold it all together gives me freedom. Freedom to rest, to trust, to enjoy my days. Freedom to make mistakes and know that things will still be okay, because Someone much bigger is in control.
Colossians 1:17 says that Jesus is “before all things and in him all things hold together.”
God really can—and does—hold my life and yours in the palm of His hand. It’s okay for me to settle in and make a dwelling place in my heart with Him. Because no matter what life throws at me, He’s totally got this.
Quit Running in Circles
Can you relate to the thought of spinning your wheels constantly and yet never settling into the comfortable, abundant life? It’s not the way God intends for us to live. He doesn’t want us carrying such a heavy burden on our shoulders. I’m living proof–it really is okay for you to let go.
Quit chasing your tail. Take a deep breath and lean into Him, dear soul.
And get ready for the ride of your life.
Sheri Dacon is a wife and mother of four who spends her time driving kids around, doing laundry, and working part-time as a Kindermusik educator and professional pianist. Her passion is helping others find fulfillment, contentment and joy in everyday life. You can visit Sheri’s blog at SheriDacon.com, or find her on Twitter, Facebook or Pinter